I Decided Anyway

Fabiola Delva: Fear is subtle. doesn't always show up as fear. Sometimes sounds like logic, like timing, ⁓ like You have much going on right now. ⁓ Wait until settle. Do it when more prepared. I know those voices. I listened to them for a long time. I'm Fabiola and this is Waiting Isn't Working. I've been wanting to start this podcast since 2020 and for a long time I didn't. Not because I didn't have something to say, but because fear is patient. It will wait as long as you will. And I gave it years. At the same time, I've been sitting on a book title for almost seven years. Procrastination is not the boss. You are. the title of my book. How is that? Seven years. I would say it out loud sometimes, like it already existed, ⁓ like I written it. People call that speaking things into existence. Maybe that works. in this case, it didn't. Because kept saying it without doing ⁓ anything it. Without doing the work. And there something uncomfortable ⁓ about that. a vision for that long and not moving on it. I did manage to write an outline though. So there's that. And then life shifted. of my children is now in college and another is on her way. And about watching them move forward made ⁓ everything Time ⁓ moving. I act not, it's moving. So I to ask honestly, what am I still waiting for? Because the truth is, I wasn't waiting on time. was waiting on certainty, on on feeling But that feeling never Not fully, in the way expect. And if I keep waiting for it, might waiting forever. So this year decided I was going to record this ⁓ even if only two people ever listen. Because here's what the waiting taught me. ⁓ was never going to be one moment that moved me. It was always going to be a quiet decision. ⁓ Quiet decision made alone with no applause. That's what this podcast is about. Not the milestones, not the big moments we post about, the small choices, ones nobody sees. I be honest with you. Nobody claps that. Not your boss, not your followers. Not even your family sometimes. Just you, alone, choosing any way. The morning you got up and worked on the thing anyway. day you pressed record, even when your voice shook a little. The year you kept saying the book title ⁓ loud and then finally decide to write it. Because most of your life is not built in big moments. It's built in the ordinary, in the quiet, in unseen. ⁓ That's where everything changes. So if you're listening, maybe there's something you've been sitting on too. An idea? A decision? version of your life you haven't stepped into yet? Maybe, maybe this is your moment. Not when you're ready. Not when settle. Now. This podcast isn't about having it all figured out. It's about starting without that. It's about doing the thing even when there's hesitation. Even when there's fear. when you're not sure anyone listening. This podcast is for ⁓ you. If you made it this far, I'd like to thank you for spending your time with me. this resonates with you in any way, share with someone who might need it. And I'll see you in the next one. ⁓ Because is not the boss. You are. Bye.