In Between Seasons

Fabiola: Hi. So it's been a minute, and I know some of you have probably been wondering when I was going to come back. And honestly, I've been wondering the same thing. I kept thinking, okay, I'll get back to the podcast when things slow down. Then things did not slow down. And then I thought, okay, maybe after this and after that. Before I knew it, I realized I was doing exactly what I spent all this time talking to you about. Waiting. Waiting for things to line up. Waiting for the right amount of time. Waiting until I could come back and do this The way I thought I was supposed to do this. And I had to be honest with myself, that's not where I am right now. I'm in a very full season of my life. There's a lot happening. There are things I'm working on, things I'm trying to figure out. And some of it is exciting. Some of it is hard, if I'm being honest. And some of it scares me. But it all needs my attention. So I'm not going to sit here and pretend that I have a new season of waiting. Is it working? Coming next. I don't know when I'll be back. That's the truth. And I'm okay saying that. that sometimes being honest about where you are is more important than trying to make everything look like it's going according to plan. Because here's the thing I've been telling you from the beginning. Do what scares you. Not just what's convenient, not just what people ask you to do not just what you already know how to do. Do the things that makes you wonder whether you can actually pull it off. And I want you to know something. Everything I've talked about on this podcast, I have personally done. So I'm not sitting here telling you to take a leap because it sounds good. I'm telling you because I've taken them. I've started things without knowing exactly how they would work. I've walked away from things. I've started over. I've put things into the world before I felt completely ready. I've made decisions. that didn't make sense to everybody. And I have to figure things out while I was already in motion. That's what waiting isn't working has always been about for me. Not having everything figured out. Moving anyway. And right now, moving anyway looks different. It looks like putting this podcast down for a while. It looks like allowing myself to be fully present in the season I'm actually in. Instead of trying to manufacture the season, I think I should be in. And I think that matters too. Because sometimes we hear messages about taking action and turn them into another form of pressure. Now We suddenly think we have to be doing everything, starting everything, building everything. If we're not doing all of that, we assume we must be waiting. No. Sometimes you're not waiting. You're doing something else. your energy is needed somewhere else. Or which you're building requires you to be quiet for a while. that doesn't mean you have abandoned the vision. It means that you're living your life. So I'm not announcing the next season today. I don't know when it will return. But I also don't want you to hear this as me telling you to stop. Quite the opposite. If anything, I want to leave you with the same question I've been asking you all along. What are you still waiting for? Are you waiting for it to be perfect? For everything to align? For the timing to make sense. Because it probably won't. Not before you start. Things begin to move when you move. And while you're waiting for everything to come together, time is passing. And that thing, inside of you, the thing you kept thinking about, the thing you keep saying you're going to do, the thing you know you need to try. is suffocating. Is suffocating. and maybe this conversation was for me too. Because during this podcast I started doing more than waiting. I started doing some of the things I had been talking about. Maybe that was part of the point. Maybe I needed to hear myself. And if during the time we spent here, even if one person, if one person started the thing, made the decision, took the step, then I've done what I've set out to do. Because this was never supposed to motivate you. Honestly. This was simply to tell you that you are lying to yourself. You know what you want to do. You already know what you've been putting off. You already know what scares you. And somewhere along the way you started convincing yourself that you needed one more sign, one more video. One more person to tell you that it was okay. You don't. So don't wait for me. Don't wait until you're no longer afraid. Go build. Go try the thing. Go do the thing that scares you. Not because I told you to or someone else has, but because you already know what you want. As for me, I'm going to step into this new chapter, this season of my life. and it's going to require my attention. So this isn't goodbye. It's just in between seasons. And when I come back, I don't want to come back because I felt guilty for being gone. I want to come back because I actually have something to say. Until then, I'll see you when I see you. Bye for now.